On Wednesday I had a Vortex healing from a lovely friend. VortexHealing® is a Divine healing art from the Merlin lineage, designed to transform the roots of emotional consciousness, heal the physical body, and awaken the spirit within the human heart. Its purpose is to release the deep conditioning that keeps us locked in our emotional pain. It works on all levels, including the karmic and genetic traits that cannot be touched by the mind.
It was perfect timing, as the New Moon was on Thursday and a time to find balance in our relationships with ourselves and others. Since then it is almost as though a light has switched on within me and I am becoming more aware of my own limitations and negative thought patterns that are holding me back. I am facing the ‘dark’side of my self that always feels fearful about the future and something ‘bad’ is going to happen to destroy what I am building up.
I thought this was because of my Jewish roots. The holocaust has cast a shadow over the Jewish people and psychologically we are still coming to terms with the experience. I am not sure we have even started healing the wounds that have been left. Millions suddenly lost their homes, their livelihoods and their families, and there was no-one to save them. This trauma is being played out in Israel. The oppressed have become the oppressor, as we remain locked in our pain and hurt, behind the mask of our own fear.
Only when we change what is happening on the inside can our external world change. I am removing my mask that I have been hiding behind and really beginning to ‘see’ myself. This is a challenging process as I begin to accept who I am, warts and all. I have put myself on a pedestal and believed my own hype. My book ‘The Shaman’s Last Apprentice’ has been the catalyst to bring me down from my perch and make me face myself.
A while ago we met a fascinating French man called Alain who told us that when we finally face ourselves, we will be ashamed of what we see. I have to admit that when he said this I smirked. At the time I thought I knew who I was and where I was going. Very soon after the meeting my life changed course and for the last three years I have been in a spiritual wilderness, not knowing who I was, where I was going and why my dreams had not materialised.
Only now, in hindsight, can I see the path I have taken and the reasons for why my life has turned out like it has. I now know the only thing blocking me was ME!! And finally I am getting in touch with the fear that was so subtle and hidden so deep it was controlling me from a subconscious place.
This new moon of Libra will bring up our subtle fears and negative conditionings that are holding us back from realising our intentions. Instead of blaming the external world, our partners, lovers, children, parents, bosses and colleagues, take the time to look inside and see that they are all reflecting what is going inside yourself. This is the opportunity to take off the mask and really accept all you are…
Love and Blessings
Rebekah Shaman xxxxxxx
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