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ABC’s – Stop procrastinating

What does this one look like for you? This is one of the words that I had the definition “twisted up” for many years. For a long time, I thought that taking time to sit still was procrastinating. Oh… but it wasn’t. Sitting or standing “still” for a moment was actually a positive action. Then when I was assisting my niece and some other younger friends through tough times, I would easily say to them, just do “something”, always take a step forward. Not that they would have to be “big” steps, just get moving. And while I saw these things solidifying, yet another one came to light. A lot of times people don’t do anything because of fear… mostly of the unknown.

What all this turned into for me, was that taking time to sit, to be calm, would help me get to processing and thinking mode. Then, when done “collecting my data and sorting” it was time to move so that the actions could start again. I have always been comforted by knowledge and learning new things. So I actually took “action” by finding more information.

So to others, I would look like I was procrastinating, I found that I rarely do. And if I am, then I need to allow myself time to sit. Do a little something each day and celebrate my accomplishments instead of beating myself up for not getting MORE done. One bite at a time.

Have a blessed day.

Kim

ABC’s – Read, study and learn about everything important in your life

Actually, from “Women at Heart / Word of Heart” I got something that fit for this so well. I have included that below. I can say, that once you find your “true center” the “struggle” goes away. And true understanding and happiness starts.

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LEARNING TO BE REAL

“What we learn with pleasure we never forget.”

– Alfred Mercier

Educator John Holt contended that learning is a natural process that happens to anyone who is busy doing something real for its own sake. We don’t have to be taught how to learn. We begin learning about life in the womb and if we remain curious, we never stop.

A young student, Jamaal M. Watson, has offered a beautiful new twist to the concept of education: “Each of us has a one-of-a-kind identity – just as we all have one-of-a-kind fingerprints – and what education means is to develop that unique personality so that we each know who we are. Self-discovery is at the bottom of being somebody real. …To discover yourself and find your path through life, you need to have lots of firsthand experiences, mostly on your own in tough situations. It doesn’t do much good to get these experiences second hand from books.”

“You can learn new things at any time in your life if you’re willing to be a beginner. If you actually learn to like being a beginner, the whole world opens up to you.”

– Barbara Sher

Hi y’all.

So, I am going to have some new books to put out here and you will definitely “hear” a tone change in my writing. I do so believe in the “Law of Attraction”. I don’t however agree with calling this a “secret”… come on, it’s how everything works… why do we need to keep that a secret?

After looking back over the past three and a half years (oh… almost 4) I had quite literally started down a path to manifest a new reality for myself. And once I was “complete” with the journey to center, I can quite clearly see where I made choices that took me away from what I truly wanted. And, I can see where I “fought” or “re-taught” myself so that I could get back to it.

I feel now that I have the tools, the knowledge and the strength to face any challenge, know how to be my own best friend, comfortable with asking for help and receiving gifts. And thankful for all that I am, have been and will be. Now, I am able to love freely, care completely and be strong for those around me.

I will be finishing up with the ABC’s, and somewhere in my “notes” over the past two months, I have another abc list that better fits with my “new” perspective. I won’t make that one as long, cause now I am not “fighting” for center. I have found center and now am back to creating and growing and thriving…. WOW… this stuff is good.

Thanks again to Nat and Michael for getting this site started. It has been very therapeutic for me. To Flo for all her insights. To Rebekah for reminding me to change the sheets. And to GOD for bringing us all toghether!!!

Kim

On Saturday I went through two huge disappointments and a huge breakthrough. I wanted two things to happen on the new moon and put them out in intention. The first was to have my new improved website up and running, and secondly, to take a shamanic ceremony with some very close friends.

I had two challenges. I had to rely on other people: the web designer and my friend who was hosting the ceremony. As Saturday loomed closer things were not looking good. The web designer had become very quiet. So quiet in fact that I had not heard from him for three weeks. The second blow was that I had not spoken or really connected to my friend and could not feel the energy building up for the ceremony.

Everyday for the last week I sat and intentionalised and visualised the ceremony and seeing my website up and running. I also prayed that a miracle would happen and things would magically come together.

Saturday came and it became obvious that the website wasn’t going to happen and I just had to let go. I felt let down by the Universe but had to accept reality. Despite my annoyance at not being in control I was able to remain balanced and calm. Then the second blow hit. At 6.00pm I phoned my friend who was hosting the ceremony, she had gone out on the piss the night before and had a hangover from hell. We tried to find another venue but it was too late in the day and after two hours I had to let go of my second dream.

It was then I could feel my self spiralling into the same old addictive pattern of depression, fear and self-loathing (the I’m not good enough critic!). However, simultaneously, I just knew it was all happening perfectly and all I needed to do was trust. For the first time I was consciously able to see both my shadow side and my light side. I did not want to become the victim again and drag myself and everyone else around me down but I just couldn’t stop the feeling that was overwhelming me.

My partner suggested we go to the park to clear our heads. The sunset was breathtaking. It was if the sky was on fire, and there stretching across the park was a huge sunset rainbow – the symbol of hope – spanning the sky.

It took my breath away and I heard in my heart ‘You will never be forsaken, this is the sign of the rainbow, you are never forsaken.’ It was as if Pachamama had heard my heart calling and this was Her answer. I just broke down and released all the pent up feelings of hopelessness and connectedness. I cried for joy, for pain, for letting go and for trusting.

Suddenly, I realised how I had created this whole experience. I had substituted one calendar for another by disconnecting to the Gregorian calendar and instead adopting the moon cycle calendar. Over the years, and especially in the last two years I have been becoming more obsessed with these cycles until I had started to use it as a control mechanism. I was no longer flowing with the natural energy and rhythm of life!

I had broken through the illusion that I thought was the reality. I call this Synchronistic Chaos. It is when we become aware that life is always changing, one dream comes true while another is shattered, while another comes true, while another one shatters. This is when we must ride this roller coaster of change and enjoy every minute of it because behind every broken dream lies a new beginning and a new opportunity.

Once we can really accept we are not in control and just let go of the reigns we can really start surfing the Synchronistic Chaos.

To be continued…

ABC’s – Quitters never win and winners Never Quit

Well, you know, for the first blog I think I have come across, I don’t think I have much to add. This one is pretty self explanatory.

Ah…. I know what I can write on this one. I think it is also important to understand when it is time to “walk away”. I tried harder and harder and harder to save my marriage. I was raise with the mantra above. And if you just work harder, and don’t give up, then all will work out.

Well, I guess it did in a way right? I worked on me. Went to counseling, studied myself, learned how to grieve, re-affirmed my faith and found, oops, chose wrong. I am not one that would want to “change” anyone else, but there are times when you must just realize that the person you may be with, though they may be good with someone else, just isn’t good with you or vice versa.

So, not to say that I “quit”, I just chose to get back to thriving versus surviving. And, re-affirming that sometimes, a body needs a break. Time to recharge, time for fun. If you are constantly “working so hard” you leave no time for the blessings to shine around you, for life to fill you. (pst: vacations are important)

So for all of you that “work” as hard at things as I did, you are officially asked to take a time out. Time to reflect, recharge and remember why you are doing what it is you do in the first place.

Have a blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s – Practice makes perfect (Don’t know that I agree with this one)

Do we want to be perfect? I don’t know that I want to go back to that state of wanting that. As I started taking some art classes a couple of years ago, the one thing that you learn is that every piece of art has an imperfection. This is what makes it new and unique.

I think practice is worthwhile and not to take things so seriously. Maybe I would change this to patience is a virtue. Or Practice what you teach. We can “tell” our kids a lot of what to and what not to do. And we can give everyone advice… but, do we practice what we “talk about”?

I was the definitely the type A, OCD type and driven to perfection. Only to end up with stress related health issues and really….. what kind of life is that? I could never reach perfection. Or… could I?

I have found coming into my thirty somethings… that you know what? I am a unique, one of a kind piece of art. And with every piece of art there is an imperfection.

Have a blessed day you all! And celebrate those imperfections that make you unique.

ABC’s – Open eyes and see things as they really are.

Yep…. goes along well with yesterday’s post. We have all fallen into this one. Ever seen the one that comes as the end of a relationship? And everyone we know could see, but we couldn’t?

Now, not taking away from people want us safe and happy, so they are more critical than we are at first. And some of those relationships are worth fighting for. But, when you start asking “Why didn’t I see that?”… take a moment and look. Why didn’t you? Then, when you find the answer, heal it, make a choice and create a mental tool for yourself to help you recognize those important things the next time. And… don’t ignore it when you see it. Be real with yourself first!

I found through my recent stuff, I really want and miss the open communication with my Dad. (yes, I have wrote on that before, see how important it is? ) But, I found also that I was “communicating” with these people that didn’t return calls, made assumptions instead of asking questions, made excuses, etc. So, if something is so important to me, why was I in a state of allowing it “everywhere” else?

Now this is not to say that some of these people aren’t important to me, they are. I just accept that about them (individually) and my relationship with the, but choose not to “feel” the disappointment cause I have defined it in. But for the ones that I find that they rest of the relationship doesn’t bring enough, I have to let them go, for me. Cause if I continue to put energy into allowing those in my life, then I will miss the beauty that someone else may show me.

Have a most blessed day! And here is to seeing all the inner beauty that you are every moment!

I find it so wonderful how quickly answers can be found when you ask the question(s) with intent. Right along with the previous blog today, I found information, through a newsletter I subscribe to, on honesty.

I have been some huge soul searching in this area about if I am so honest, trustworthy and caring…. why are parts of my life so “empty”? And when that communication thing came up for me (Ah… blog for tomorrow)… this is what I found. I have added them to my “tool box”.

These are from one of the news letters from Susie and Otto Collins. I have found some great advise and lessons from their ebooks. Their link will be posted under my favorite links today.

A portion on one article from a recent news letter:

A few questions to ask yourself when trying to decide whether to be totally honest with someone or not might be these…

Honesty in relationships is a huge topic and these are just a few of our thoughts.

ABC’s – Never lie, cheat or steal, always strike a fair deal.

How do you all do with this one? I have been told and we all laugh about it that I have no poker face and it is very apparent when I lie… I just can’t. And that fair thing… yeah, do that to a fault, for the other person.

I am finding during this journey to my next stage in life, that I should never lie, cheat or steal, and should ALWAYS strike a fair deal for ME. This is probably the toughest lesson I have had to do. And sums up most of my challenges in previous blogs. And yes, there are signs for the internal lies we tell ourselves as well.

My friends and family have questioned my “taste” in men over the past few relationships. I tell them they have a “quiet strength” that attracts me. Utilizing all those sporadic moments of good to tell a story of how great they are. (striking a fair deal for them). So, these people were blessed to have met me, but I was not so blessed to have chosen them. And, nor will I be able to fully trust myself undone with them.

I found that my truth was / is I wanted to be accepted my way and for the full of me. I looked for the disrespect (in all its forms) I perceived from my youth and lived it cause I was just sure that someone would see the beauty of me; outside of their own stuff. (hhhmmmm what had I been asking for? and looked was continued to be).

I found that the ones I wanted so much, really don’t like or respect women. HHHMM.. Now, considering that I am one, the result is as wonderful as I am, this main part will not be able to be changed.

So today with all of you, I choose to respect and love myself. To not tell “stories” or paint pretty pictures anymore. Reality is reality. And if I feel the need to scream that there is a problem, or have the need to tell someone good bye, that I am being truthful and that I am wanting a fair deal for me. And, if I don’t listen or act on it, then I am cheating myself from what I do want to come into my reality.

Listen to what your heart trying to tell you when you feel like coming undone. What is it you want? Not what you have or don’t have, but what you want. The take a positve step in that direction.

We all deserve to be the best US we can be. And we all deserve love, honesty, trust and RESPECT. But it has to start with how we listen, talk and act with ourselves.

Have a blessed day all! Love yourself fully.

ABC’s – Make it happen

I think I wrote on this one a little while back… and to go along with the “Secret” and “Ask and It is Given”, you can manifest anything that you may want or need in your life. Now the trick here is it may not come in the “fashion” you originally had in mind… and you have to be clear on the energy flow that goes with it.

I have several close friends that think and have stated that I am a phenomenal manifester. I can manifest anything in my reality. However, when I have mixed feelings under the surface, the “answers” can look like a “mixed” type of creation.

Point in… I say “good bye” (just internally – not a phone call) to people due to not calling, effort only on my part, etc…. they end up calling or writing the next day. HHHMMM…. think I found myself continuing to manifest me as the safety net? ha ha ha.

So, if you are receiving back mixed signals from the universe and from what you “desire”, take a look at what fine print you are putting out with the request. It can be quite interesting to take a look and find out if you are holding yourself back and why.

The other part of making things happen, is you have to be willing to do the work. You can’t want for a clean home, yet never pick up a broom. You can’t want for a new car, and not have an income flow. You can’t want for well rounded, happy children and not spend time with them.

When you want this way with no effort on your end, then, these become wishes only and empty. The energy flow stays on “stop” with no movement towards that which you want.

I do “wish” people well and hope that their situations improve, but I also follow that up (like when people are sick) with an action… Like: Lighting an internet candle and saying a prayer. Like sending them an ecard. The action doesn’t always have to take a lot of effort… but DO SOMETHING to MAKE IT HAPPEN…. move those energies.

Have a most blessed day…. ! Go Manifest something.