Cloud9000 - Special Contributors

Hi y’all. Well, I have been gone for a little bit. After the last couple of blogs that I wrote on that “feeling of nothing” and time to make a change, well…. yeah, we did.

The day I wrote my last blog, my fiance’ (oh yeah, he asked!!! I said yes!!!) and I had a very emotional discussion on what was going on with our finances. Though we both took FULL responsibility for all the “potential problems” we came up with some great solutions. (Writing this now, it is nice to see that we are looking forward at potential problems and not at them as they blowup around us). So we opted to move out of his house, back to mine and make some other financial decisions (oh… and get engaged).
So we moved, repaired and got the house on the market in under two weeks, had it in contract in two days of being listed, participated in 2 Halloween parties, did trick-or-treating, took family pictures and started the process of unpacking a house that was now filled with 3 adults, a teen, three pre-schoolers, a new baby, two dogs and a puppy. Hee Hee…. at least life is all around, all the time.

So, I am now back at the home that I (looking back again) really took a break from while I figured out some other aspects about my life. I had “changed the sheets”, and it is now time to come back and repair, change and take back the aspects of my life that were good and needed attention.

Small…. Though I do value down time, time to watch a movie with the family and to watch a sunset, life around me, as stated by my fiance’, is never boring. And as one of my best friends mentioned, “You never do anything small.”

A special thank you to Michael for all the times you have been there to bounce my thoughts and “create”. Thank you to Rob for seeing the beauty of a life through all the chaos. And to Rebekah for the advice on “changing my sheets” and great advice that I couldn’t hear internally at the time!

Have a blessed day all!

Kim

For the last five days I have been ‘sitting Shiva’ – a traditional Jewish mourning ritual that honours the dead and helps the mourners through the first difficult days of death. Despite rejecting the religious, dogmatic aspects of the religion, I love the traditions, customs and rituals, and despite the Shiva being the most solemn of all traditions I find it the most powerful.

The Shiva is held in the house of the principle mourner, (in this case my mother). It is considered a great ‘mitzvah’ for family and friends to visit and give blessings of ‘a long life’ or to say ‘may we meet only at simcha’s.’ The mourner has a part of their clothes ripped to represent the ‘tearing away’ of the loved one and they must wear this throughout the seven day mourning period. They are also not allowed to wear leather, jewellery, shower or bathe or shave. They must also sit on low chairs to represent their discomfort and pain while all mirrors are covered. The mourner is not obliged to do anything. People are there to cook, prepare meals and provide company.

In this case I and our friend Babi from Spain stayed with my mum from Sunday to Tuesday and my younger sister took over on Wednesday and Thursday. It was a powerful experience for me to really bond with my mum when she really needed me. I also realised how many times I had not been there for her. In fact when she most needed me in the early nineties during my parents divorce I deserted her and went to live in Sri Lanka and India where I stayed for a year and a half with minimal contact. I could finally see how the cycles of time and life were coming to completion, when I could bury the past and I was able to be with her when she needed me most.

We did everything by the book because my grandpa was a real traditionalist and perfectionist. He loved things done properly and I know he was with us when my uncle, who married a catholic and has not been involved in the religion for years, said the ‘kaddish’ (memorial prayer) in Hebrew. We were honouring him in death as we honoured him in life and it made us all feel empowered and at peace.

Every night was different, with many friends visiting us each night. There was also an atmosphere that no words can describe. There was sadness but at the same time there was a feeling of great celebration. We were celebrating as well as mourning his life and this is quite unusual as some Shiva’s can be very solemn and distressing occasions.

This mourning period is over and yet I know my grandpa is still with me helping me from another dimension. I also know that he is finally seeing me, without all the blinkers from his Jewish upbringing and dogmatic conditioning. He is seeing me as the free spirit that I am and understands me fully for the first time. I know our relationship has not ended it has only changed into something different and he will be with me in spirit until my own life ends.

How blessed am I!

Love and blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

As a side note: It is interesting that the Hindu god of death and destruction, also known as the destroyer, is also called Shiva.

Yesterday morning at about 9.00am my grandpa died. It was a shock as I was sure I was going to see him on Friday and get the opportunity to say goodbye while he was still breathing. I met my brother and we went to the nursing home where he had been admitted on Monday. There he laid his body cold but his soul still hovering around.

I gave his body some healing as I could sense that my grandpa had died in a lot of pain (his body was riddled with cancer) and he needed some assistance to move into the light. It was a powerful ritual and as I was healing him and helping him on his way I could feel his love shine down and my heart expanded. My grandpa was a traditional Jew and he often found my way of life and beliefs difficult to accept but when he became ill and nearly died about four years ago I began to do energy healing on him.

His cancer went into remission and he soon accepted energy healing was a powerful tool for recovery. Every Friday night I would travel for an hour to my mum’s house to be with him and give him some healing. It was a powerful experience and we became very close on a much more subtle level. He was a friend, a teacher and a great man.

Around his neck he always wore a חי – CHAI, which means life and I am now wearing it around my neck. I feel this is his gift to me – the gift of חי of life.

He died at the grand old age of 93 and he lived his life to the full. Here is my Eulogy to my granddad that I will read tomorrow at the funeral. It describes his love of life and the very special man that he was.

Grandpa Alf

Grandpa Alf has died at the age of ninety-three
A special and dear man, I know you would agree
He lived his life too the very end with gusto and panache
His hair was always groomed and so was his ‘tache
A brother of five sisters he was older than his years
And at fourteen with his father he began his carpenting career
When his father died at sixteen he continued the family trade
And not long after, a successful manufacturing business he had made
He was such a good salesman no one could resist his charm
Always so polite and gracious, courteous and calm
Despite eventually retiring my grandpa soon got bored
And very soon you could find him on the Courts shop floor
He loved all the good things in life and lived it to the full
He was always laughing and joking and knew how to enjoy it all
He loved his yearly holidays to countries by the sea
Surrounded by a wide circle of friends and his close family
He loved playing cards, especially solo, with family and friends
His sense of humour and love of life was with him till the end
Loyal and devoted he always helped others less fortunate than himself
He knew the importance of the mitzvah of supporting someone else
He had a knack of helping others to achieve their full potential
He was great at giving advice and knew how to keep things confidential
He was always able to get out of paying parking tickets and fines
An avid spurs supporter and he’d always be on time
He loved salt beef and chips and chips with everything
Walking in the park or whatever life would bring
His beautiful face was always wrinkle free, smiling and aglow
He was so young and sprightly his age you’d never know
Recently, when he returned to the East End, after thirty years away
He thought he may find his old customers, who would have been 120 years old today!
A loving husband, father and granddad extraordinaire
Blessed are we for all the experiences together we have shared
So today we say goodbye to a very special man
He lightened up the world I was his number one fan
And even though you have passed on into the sacred light
I know deep inside that you’re doing alright
And despite the fact that we are now so very far apart
There will always be a part of you in each one of our hearts.

Rest in Peace my sweet Grandpa

You will always be with me

Love and blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

On my last blog (ABC’s Zeroing in on what you want) I wrote that I felt in a state of “nothing” and that I wanted to learn how to create for me. Though proud of the balance and happiness around me. Well, then through “Women at Heart” I read a blurb by Ingrid Bacci on “Effortlest Living”.

I read through her blurb and website and found this: http://www.ingridbacci.com/self-empowerment.htm

Self-Empowerment

Are you seeking self-empowerment? Did you know that being self-empowered is identical with feeling more effortless, more in a state of ‘flow?’ Are you aware that being in ‘flow’ or in ‘the zone’ can be taught? Would you like to learn this art and become truly self-empowered? Ingrid Bacci’s goal is to show you how to release physical, emotional, mental and spiritual stress from your life, so as to live more effortlessly, productively and with a deeper sense of fulfillment and self-empowerment.

After reading a little further, I found I was exactly where I wanted to be and just needed a little time to get comfortable with this new “feeling or sense”. That the feeling of “nothing” was actually the most powerful place of creation I could be in. I was in the “zone”.

With that, I am really looking forward to what I can do now with this knowledge. Still need to get the feet moving again.
Have a blessed day.

Kim

ABC’s - Zero in on your target and go for it.

I have to say this is one of my toughest ones. I have found that I had gotten really good on doing this for others (family, friends, work). And though I had received a lot of “riches” in my life, the “reason” I had for them was so others were taken care of and better off. When the majority of my stress was managed, I had switched my life around and what now “centered”, there was an odd sense of “nothing”.

Don’t get me wrong, I am happy. I have a loving partner, great business partners, kids are striving, getting along well with the ex, family relationships going well, dog is doing great…. yet, there is still the odd sense of “nothing”. I manage my health daily, my energy and stress levels, the balances of everything…. yet, hmmmm.

I can visualize and imagine what I want. Have all the tingles and excitement about it, then poof…. not there yet. What was contributing to this? What was I doing that would get me so close, yet so far from what I wanted? And now, I had people attached and a part of my dreams. My lack of being able to maintain (or lack of knowledge about doing for me) my wants was affecting others. This was very new to me. And though this was there in the past, what moved me before was anger about something or someone. I definitely did not want anger to be my motivator anymore.

So, no that I am “calm” and happy…. I am proceeding into the next stage of this years journey to with deliberate intent, dare to dream and follow through on the part of me. That I am worth it, deserve to be successful and am allowed to be prosperous.

Dare to dream. You will know you are close to zeroing in on your target when there are chills down your spine and through your body. An uncontrollable smile across your face and sparkles in your eyes. My next stage and what I am working on now is the going for it for the reason of I just want to.
Have a blessed day.

ABC’s - You are unique of all God’s creations. Nothing can replace you.

I am sure that we all bounce around this one in many ways. And the reason… yeah, we are all unique. ha ha ha.

The way to true freedom is to allow others to be themselves and to allow yourself to be you. All the parts of you that are unique. I had always believed that I was unique and that there was no one like me. I can’t say that I always believed that was a good thing at the time or that my uniqueness was of any value. So for a long time I strived for “normal”. But then, what is normal when everyone is unique? hhhmmm… And, how then could you reach perfection?

Since going through this past year and recognizing what is important to me, and allowing myself to be me, I really have found a new level of happiness and can say for the first time in my adult life, I am truly happy. I enjoy my kids more. I love my relationships with friends and family. I enjoy spending time by myself. And you know what….? A slew of songs on the radio now make more sense. I smile more and I “bounce back” from disappointments faster.

I am not “just” a mom, a daughter, a sister, an ex-wife, a partner….. I am all those roles and have those relationships, but I am bar none…. KIM. I am unique in my own right and deserve to as happy as anyone else. Oh, and, it is not my responsibility to ensure that the rest of the world is happy before I am allowed to be. (gotta tell you, that lifted a lot off my stress load)

You all have a blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s - Xcellerate your efforts

Basically, if you want to excel your efforts, then clean up your “house”. By which I mean, “Mind, Body and Soul”. Reconnect these three as they all can get you where you want to be. And then, amazing speed, agility and miraculous things can happen.

This includes how you feel about all of your “relationships”: Getting to know your emotional guidance system

* With Self - spiritual, intellectual, physical.
* With People - I do this by role type: Parents / Bosses, Children / Employees, Friends / Colleagues, etc.
* With Things - Money, Property, Heirlooms

As you find out how you Feel about things as they “are”, Ask yourself these questions:

* What about this is important to me?
* Is it something I want to keep or remove?
* If I choose to keep it, were does it belong?

Then, fill your tool box: Now that you know what is important, is “how” you cared for that still working?

* Now that I know what is important to me, how do I feel about how I cared, got, did this before?
* Did I feel tired? Did I feel refreshed? How do I do it better for me?
* Do I have the answer for that or do I need new information?

I have found for me, I have a yearly cycle. My “year end” is May 13. My “Start of Year” is May 14. The week following is for transitioning closing down and opening up. And through this past “year” I now can hear my soul with clarity. And I now see that I have always done this and have put out what I will accomplish in the coming year.

May 2006 - I took stock in my marriage, my family, my children and my job. By May 2007, I had changed ALL of those situations. They were all closed and I was staged for something new. I had completed my education.

May 2007 - I took into consideration all that I had learned and now went for what I wanted. I have now found my soul partner, my children are accelerating and I have time for them. I have found my business partners and am starting that as well. My relationships with those closest to me are now solid and flourishing. This will be one amazing year in full creation.

My toolbox is full. I have the skill and know how. I can determine quickly if it is a want for me or others and determine it’s importance and priority in my life.

So understand your want, visualize it fully, listen to how you ask for your wants and then Xcellerate it by filling your tool box with exercises that help you do this with each decision you make.

Have a blessed time creating.

Kim

ABC’s - Want it more than anything

This goes right in line with the last two blogs - understanding yourself (and your wants), visualizations (taking the time to see and “build that big picture” of what the want is…. and then…. constructing the WANT statement and removing or getting the information you need in order to do it.

To clarify how to know that you want is “pure” the old saying stands, when you construct your want statement there should be “No ifs, ands or buts”. This is kind of an exercise of removing any road blocks or red tape. Staging the “environment” so it is conducive to the receiving of the want.

Now this is not to say that these words would not be applicable depending. Just be aware, if you do have one of the ifs, ands, or buts in your want statement, be aware that they will affect the outcome of the want.

Example -

* I want to win the Lottery to pay for school, but if I don’t I can get a student loan.

Don’t or the word not, will always take the item away. The “lack of” is what you are attracting.
And, you just stated that “I can do it this other way”.
So really, you don’t “need” it or expect you will get it.

* I want to win the Lottery to pay for school, if no one else needs it more because I can get by.

You selfless, generous person you. Of course someone else needs it more.

* I want to win the Lottery to pay for school and I will by my mom a car.

You are generous and you have now promised to do more with it.
But now you are down a path that you now have to commit to what you
are going to do with all the money before the want is met.
Are you feeling a little guilty about winning?

* I want to win the Lottery for pay for school and I want to win today.

Good for you. How is that going to happen? Will it be mailed to you?
Will someone be buying that for you just on a whim? You still need to take action.

This is the strength statement:

* This is the winning ticket.

So you now have the winning ticket in your hand before the draw.
Do you really believe this? Or are any of those ifs, ands, or buts,
from above still in your head?

All the action has been completed (ticket was actually purchased before draw) (kind of import part there). The “ifs, ands, or buts” are removed and the want is pure.

Wow…. that was fun. Hee hee hee. I also have another blog started on how I got to this realization. This has been a great day.

Have a blessed day. And here is to all your wants.

Kim

ABC’s - Visualize it

You know, I struggled with this one through the years. My Sports Coaches would say it, my Professors would say it, my counselor, my boss…. but I still didn’t quite get to the “goal”. So I thought. I had, however, started an internal dialog that said “I don’t know how to do that”. I was also incorrect there.

Through the last few months I have found that I did know how to visualize and I was quite good at it. The truth was, though I didn’t reach the goal that my coaches, parents, teachers, bosses, etc had wanted (or visualized) for me, I had reached mine. I enjoy sports, but my want was not to be a sports star, my want was to study sports and understand how to “coach”. And, I was successful. I also enjoy learning, and though I didn’t “complete college” what I really wanted was to understand what was needed to transition from high school to college. And, I was successful. And I can do this for each of the places in my life that I had originally marked down as “unsuccessful” previously.

See, what I had found was though I didn’t not reach the end result that others would have wanted, I had reached the end result for me. I wanted knowledge on “how” things were done. This included and most importantly “parenting”. And I can now with full honesty to myself… I am successful. (I will safe more on that for a later blog.)

What ever means works for you, from what ever source that is safe for you… I recommend taking time to fully understand what “visualization” is. And how it works for you. This includes all the senses and emotions that come with it. When you do, you can dramatically effect change in your life and get to your wants with amazing precision and speed.

Have a most blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s - Understand yourself in order to better understand others

Really? I think and believe that this statement can go in both directions. “Understand others in order to better understand yourself”. Though, the second can make the process a lot longer. But does work.
This one was a little tough for me at first. I SO understood others…. I was the one that was “different”. And I know several people that understood themselves very well, but thought everyone else was confused.
Either way that you come to this one, it still works. I initially got really good at looking at myself (and healing) by learning about how my kids are. The uniqueness of each of them and the similarities in development cycles.

I think it should also be noted, that the best way to get to know your preferences and understand yourself is to REALLY pay attention to “why” you feel a certain way when you experience something. Note your initial reaction and when you have time, sit down quietly with yourself or a close confidant and ask yourself “Why do I feel that way?” and “What does that mean to me?”. Then when you have those answers, you can ask yourself “What do I want to do about that?” Then, before actually “taking action”, ask yourself “How would my action make me feel?” and “Will I respect myself for taking that action?”.

I have found through my journey over the past few months that when I take time to do this type of exercise at minimum once a day, I can and have invoked massive change in my life in a relatively short amount of time. And days that I feel “undone” most of the day, I slow down, ask myself the questions (or similar) through each step of the day… and by the end of the day, I have completed a multitude of things, my strength is intact and I feel good about my whole day! And then rest is so much more pleasant and I am not carrying things over to the next day (residual negativity).

Throughout my life, I felt I didn’t “know” myself. And I really enjoyed doing for others. Though, for many years and at different times, I felt and thought that it was my “job” to be there and help others. Well that didn’t “feel good”, but when I asked myself if I gave up doing for others, how would I feel. Well, I would have felt “worse”… so I continued on doing for others. What I found though, is as I helped others, I was actually getting to know me more. Understanding myself more. I had the desire to be there, providing support and doing for others, but I just didn’t understand why. Through doing what “felt” right to me, I learned and started to understand myself through understanding others.

What ever direction you take to finding or understanding self (and this is respectful understand of, not “beating yourself up” stuff) take the time to do it. Ask yourself the questions that you would if you were helping someone else. And remember that you deserve respectful communication and support….. even from yourself.
I can truly attest to the fact, that once you find your “center” your ability to create and manifest change is dramatically increased and you can do amazing things is a matter of moments.

Have a blessed day!

Kim