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Hi y’all. Well, I have been gone for a little bit. After the last couple of blogs that I wrote on that “feeling of nothing” and time to make a change, well…. yeah, we did.

The day I wrote my last blog, my fiance’ (oh yeah, he asked!!! I said yes!!!) and I had a very emotional discussion on what was going on with our finances. Though we both took FULL responsibility for all the “potential problems” we came up with some great solutions. (Writing this now, it is nice to see that we are looking forward at potential problems and not at them as they blowup around us). So we opted to move out of his house, back to mine and make some other financial decisions (oh… and get engaged).
So we moved, repaired and got the house on the market in under two weeks, had it in contract in two days of being listed, participated in 2 Halloween parties, did trick-or-treating, took family pictures and started the process of unpacking a house that was now filled with 3 adults, a teen, three pre-schoolers, a new baby, two dogs and a puppy. Hee Hee…. at least life is all around, all the time.

So, I am now back at the home that I (looking back again) really took a break from while I figured out some other aspects about my life. I had “changed the sheets”, and it is now time to come back and repair, change and take back the aspects of my life that were good and needed attention.

Small…. Though I do value down time, time to watch a movie with the family and to watch a sunset, life around me, as stated by my fiance’, is never boring. And as one of my best friends mentioned, “You never do anything small.”

A special thank you to Michael for all the times you have been there to bounce my thoughts and “create”. Thank you to Rob for seeing the beauty of a life through all the chaos. And to Rebekah for the advice on “changing my sheets” and great advice that I couldn’t hear internally at the time!

Have a blessed day all!

Kim

On my last blog (ABC’s Zeroing in on what you want) I wrote that I felt in a state of “nothing” and that I wanted to learn how to create for me. Though proud of the balance and happiness around me. Well, then through “Women at Heart” I read a blurb by Ingrid Bacci on “Effortlest Living”.

I read through her blurb and website and found this: http://www.ingridbacci.com/self-empowerment.htm

Self-Empowerment

Are you seeking self-empowerment? Did you know that being self-empowered is identical with feeling more effortless, more in a state of ‘flow?’ Are you aware that being in ‘flow’ or in ‘the zone’ can be taught? Would you like to learn this art and become truly self-empowered? Ingrid Bacci’s goal is to show you how to release physical, emotional, mental and spiritual stress from your life, so as to live more effortlessly, productively and with a deeper sense of fulfillment and self-empowerment.

After reading a little further, I found I was exactly where I wanted to be and just needed a little time to get comfortable with this new “feeling or sense”. That the feeling of “nothing” was actually the most powerful place of creation I could be in. I was in the “zone”.

With that, I am really looking forward to what I can do now with this knowledge. Still need to get the feet moving again.
Have a blessed day.

Kim

ABC’s - Zero in on your target and go for it.

I have to say this is one of my toughest ones. I have found that I had gotten really good on doing this for others (family, friends, work). And though I had received a lot of “riches” in my life, the “reason” I had for them was so others were taken care of and better off. When the majority of my stress was managed, I had switched my life around and what now “centered”, there was an odd sense of “nothing”.

Don’t get me wrong, I am happy. I have a loving partner, great business partners, kids are striving, getting along well with the ex, family relationships going well, dog is doing great…. yet, there is still the odd sense of “nothing”. I manage my health daily, my energy and stress levels, the balances of everything…. yet, hmmmm.

I can visualize and imagine what I want. Have all the tingles and excitement about it, then poof…. not there yet. What was contributing to this? What was I doing that would get me so close, yet so far from what I wanted? And now, I had people attached and a part of my dreams. My lack of being able to maintain (or lack of knowledge about doing for me) my wants was affecting others. This was very new to me. And though this was there in the past, what moved me before was anger about something or someone. I definitely did not want anger to be my motivator anymore.

So, no that I am “calm” and happy…. I am proceeding into the next stage of this years journey to with deliberate intent, dare to dream and follow through on the part of me. That I am worth it, deserve to be successful and am allowed to be prosperous.

Dare to dream. You will know you are close to zeroing in on your target when there are chills down your spine and through your body. An uncontrollable smile across your face and sparkles in your eyes. My next stage and what I am working on now is the going for it for the reason of I just want to.
Have a blessed day.

ABC’s - You are unique of all God’s creations. Nothing can replace you.

I am sure that we all bounce around this one in many ways. And the reason… yeah, we are all unique. ha ha ha.

The way to true freedom is to allow others to be themselves and to allow yourself to be you. All the parts of you that are unique. I had always believed that I was unique and that there was no one like me. I can’t say that I always believed that was a good thing at the time or that my uniqueness was of any value. So for a long time I strived for “normal”. But then, what is normal when everyone is unique? hhhmmm… And, how then could you reach perfection?

Since going through this past year and recognizing what is important to me, and allowing myself to be me, I really have found a new level of happiness and can say for the first time in my adult life, I am truly happy. I enjoy my kids more. I love my relationships with friends and family. I enjoy spending time by myself. And you know what….? A slew of songs on the radio now make more sense. I smile more and I “bounce back” from disappointments faster.

I am not “just” a mom, a daughter, a sister, an ex-wife, a partner….. I am all those roles and have those relationships, but I am bar none…. KIM. I am unique in my own right and deserve to as happy as anyone else. Oh, and, it is not my responsibility to ensure that the rest of the world is happy before I am allowed to be. (gotta tell you, that lifted a lot off my stress load)

You all have a blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s - Visualize it

You know, I struggled with this one through the years. My Sports Coaches would say it, my Professors would say it, my counselor, my boss…. but I still didn’t quite get to the “goal”. So I thought. I had, however, started an internal dialog that said “I don’t know how to do that”. I was also incorrect there.

Through the last few months I have found that I did know how to visualize and I was quite good at it. The truth was, though I didn’t reach the goal that my coaches, parents, teachers, bosses, etc had wanted (or visualized) for me, I had reached mine. I enjoy sports, but my want was not to be a sports star, my want was to study sports and understand how to “coach”. And, I was successful. I also enjoy learning, and though I didn’t “complete college” what I really wanted was to understand what was needed to transition from high school to college. And, I was successful. And I can do this for each of the places in my life that I had originally marked down as “unsuccessful” previously.

See, what I had found was though I didn’t not reach the end result that others would have wanted, I had reached the end result for me. I wanted knowledge on “how” things were done. This included and most importantly “parenting”. And I can now with full honesty to myself… I am successful. (I will safe more on that for a later blog.)

What ever means works for you, from what ever source that is safe for you… I recommend taking time to fully understand what “visualization” is. And how it works for you. This includes all the senses and emotions that come with it. When you do, you can dramatically effect change in your life and get to your wants with amazing precision and speed.

Have a most blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s - Take control of your own destiny

How did I take control of my destiny? Hmmm…. there are so many layers to this. I have now have a reference set of books that I utilize to help others help themselves and that have helped me to “take control”.

1) The Bible. Which I have started to re-read. (For the spiritual guidance)
2) “The Law of Attraction” and “Ask and It Shall be Given” (For the rules of how this all works)
3) South Beach diet book (For the health and support of a body)
4) “What to expect when you are expecting” Series of books… (for the physical development cycles)
5) “The Baby Whisper” series of books (about communication, respect and emotional development)
6) still researching…. coming soon
7) still researching…. coming soon

When I started to study “Ask and It Shall be Given” and understanding the law of attraction, I found many places that outwardly I was asking in the negative voice. Just removing that did a lot to change my experiences. Then I noticed, though my outward voice was changing, what I was getting back was still “disjointed”. I then found that my internal voice had it’s own words. I started to clearly see that some of my “definitions” were all messed up. I and my sister went back to the basics and true meanings for all words. This helped to clear up my own internal chatter and helped me to see where I was “hurt” or where I had made some strong “choices” in the past.

Ask all of my internal and external communication straighted out, and I had started to heal my body from the inside out…. I found I could think more clear. Allowing time to heal the emotional self. I no longer “gave in” to other’s desires by giving up on mine. And as I started to “cleanse” my emotional, soulful, physical and external houses…. I found more energy, more strength, more ….. lets say, I found the true “ME”…

I now take full responsibility and pride in my life, my dreams, my health, etc. I am for the first time in my adult life, truly happy. I know now how to help someone else by simply being keeping myself centered and healthy. I know now that I DO have the choice on how I feel about a situation. And if an emotion does trigger, I use it to guide my choices versus ignoring the feelings.

The time spent to heal oneself with intent is well worth the investment. Now the original dreams I came here to do initially are now back on track and thriving. There is still a lot of cleansing of the “old life” to do, but I am centered, I am strong and I am happy.

Here’s to a most wonderful journey for all of us.

Have a blessed day!

Kim

ABC’s - Read, study and learn about everything important in your life

Actually, from “Women at Heart / Word of Heart” I got something that fit for this so well. I have included that below. I can say, that once you find your “true center” the “struggle” goes away. And true understanding and happiness starts.

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LEARNING TO BE REAL

“What we learn with pleasure we never forget.”

– Alfred Mercier

Educator John Holt contended that learning is a natural process that happens to anyone who is busy doing something real for its own sake. We don’t have to be taught how to learn. We begin learning about life in the womb and if we remain curious, we never stop.

A young student, Jamaal M. Watson, has offered a beautiful new twist to the concept of education: “Each of us has a one-of-a-kind identity – just as we all have one-of-a-kind fingerprints – and what education means is to develop that unique personality so that we each know who we are. Self-discovery is at the bottom of being somebody real. …To discover yourself and find your path through life, you need to have lots of firsthand experiences, mostly on your own in tough situations. It doesn’t do much good to get these experiences second hand from books.”

“You can learn new things at any time in your life if you’re willing to be a beginner. If you actually learn to like being a beginner, the whole world opens up to you.”

– Barbara Sher

Hi y’all.

So, I am going to have some new books to put out here and you will definitely “hear” a tone change in my writing. I do so believe in the “Law of Attraction”. I don’t however agree with calling this a “secret”… come on, it’s how everything works… why do we need to keep that a secret?
After looking back over the past three and a half years (oh… almost 4) I had quite literally started down a path to manifest a new reality for myself. And once I was “complete” with the journey to center, I can quite clearly see where I made choices that took me away from what I truly wanted. And, I can see where I “fought” or “re-taught” myself so that I could get back to it.

I feel now that I have the tools, the knowledge and the strength to face any challenge, know how to be my own best friend, comfortable with asking for help and receiving gifts. And thankful for all that I am, have been and will be. Now, I am able to love freely, care completely and be strong for those around me.

I will be finishing up with the ABC’s, and somewhere in my “notes” over the past two months, I have another abc list that better fits with my “new” perspective. I won’t make that one as long, cause now I am not “fighting” for center. I have found center and now am back to creating and growing and thriving…. WOW… this stuff is good.

Thanks again to Nat and Michael for getting this site started. It has been very therapeutic for me. To Flo for all her insights. To Rebekah for reminding me to change the sheets. And to GOD for bringing us all toghether!!!

Kim

ABC’s - Make it happen

I think I wrote on this one a little while back… and to go along with the “Secret” and “Ask and It is Given”, you can manifest anything that you may want or need in your life. Now the trick here is it may not come in the “fashion” you originally had in mind… and you have to be clear on the energy flow that goes with it.

I have several close friends that think and have stated that I am a phenomenal manifester. I can manifest anything in my reality. However, when I have mixed feelings under the surface, the “answers” can look like a “mixed” type of creation.

Point in… I say “good bye” (just internally - not a phone call) to people due to not calling, effort only on my part, etc…. they end up calling or writing the next day. HHHMMM…. think I found myself continuing to manifest me as the safety net? ha ha ha.

So, if you are receiving back mixed signals from the universe and from what you “desire”, take a look at what fine print you are putting out with the request. It can be quite interesting to take a look and find out if you are holding yourself back and why.

The other part of making things happen, is you have to be willing to do the work. You can’t want for a clean home, yet never pick up a broom. You can’t want for a new car, and not have an income flow. You can’t want for well rounded, happy children and not spend time with them.

When you want this way with no effort on your end, then, these become wishes only and empty. The energy flow stays on “stop” with no movement towards that which you want.

I do “wish” people well and hope that their situations improve, but I also follow that up (like when people are sick) with an action… Like: Lighting an internet candle and saying a prayer. Like sending them an ecard. The action doesn’t always have to take a lot of effort… but DO SOMETHING to MAKE IT HAPPEN…. move those energies.

Have a most blessed day…. ! Go Manifest something.

I’ve been trying to keep better track of my life lately.

By this, I don’t mean that I’m trying to get organized, which I’ve come to accept as a goal instead of a destination — which, in turn, is a nice way of saying that I am accepting my inner slob. If I were more brave, I’d include a picture of my office here to illustrate the point.

Rather, I’m trying to jot down more notes of what I am doing and seeing each day. I’m noting which restaurant I went to for lunch, what movie I saw, or what kind of wine I had for dinner–pretty mundane stuff. Some things might be in the nature of goals — I’m trying to track how many miles I’ve run per day, for example — but most are just observations.

I’m finding that registering the little details makes me take note of my daily life instead of rushing through it. But I also feel no pressure to put all these little events in context, which is one reason I’ve never been very good about keeping a journal.

A source of inspiration for me was this, a personal annual report for 2006 prepared by a New York graphic artist. I’m not necessarily interested in tabulating the same things he is, but it’s a pretty neat idea.

Does anybody else have experience doing something similar?