Cloud9000 – Special Contributors

The biggest struggle in life that I have found is finding someone to believe in you when you have hard things to do. Even if they are the right things (not always the right ways, but with the right intent).
I find that the world right now is really needing people that just believe and support. If you are one of those people that do… Believe! Breath! Find the Balance!
Most people currently have no beliefe in self. I was raised with full knowledge of the world around me…. full knowledge that people had something to teach… full knowledge that I had something to do….
The message though came accross with a lot of emotion and things my parents wanted me to overcome for them and I was one of the people in their lives that would listen. I am in no way shape or form taking away from my parents… we take what we have and try to make better.
I have since, through lots of tests, found that I believe in, want….. people to be as whole / balanced as they can be. I found mine once… for a moment. This site, these people were part of that. I didn’t realize it at the time, now getting it…. when you feel “happy”, hold on to the familiarity of it. And then start to fight for it. It is that worthwhile. All “potential loss”… Happy gives you the strength to continue to do what is your strength.
I have “lost” a lot of friends over the years. Over doing what I needed to do… not what I wanted to do, not what I always “felt” ish….. but something drove me. I was meant to be something…. even though I had lots of dought. I thought I was to be someone else than who I am now. Amazing….
I am currently faced with the “helping everyone feel better”, “losing all that I would want”, “feeling horrid that there is more loss”…. and yet, I am willing to give all that up. Because, in the first time in my life, I actually believe in me. I actually believe in my gift. I actually am with full knowledge knowing it will hurt, trust that I can help those I care about, and are “mine” get through it too and help them be stronger…. more whole.
I was so sad to see so little posts here… I always trusted it was here. God bless. Ask…. it will come. I always thought I was asking for me…. through all the struggles…. all the losses.. and that… I have come to find out, I fight for people… for kids especially. And I am now an adult (or right at it. LOL)
Keep asking, keep wanting, keep trying, keep being… we all make a diffence. And I want for all of you to find a place that you can “vocalize” or “show” or “be” just you… that is unjudgemental… Just you own “Private Idaho”. A place to just be… for a moment.

Okay… be back again… don’t like this small post window. Have to notebook and reflect… and then copy paste. LOL

First post in a long while… let me take a minute to thank my friends that still allowed me this access. Back in a few.

I have just had a very powerful realisation I would like to share.  Just as a plant needs to be repotted once it has outgrown  its smaller pot I am needing to re-pot to bigger dwellings.  The challenge is that at this present time I don’t have the finances to make such a leap.  Having done all the affirmations, rituals and the like for abundance I am still plagued by ‘lack.’  I always have only Just Enough and so, despite never actually being in debt, I don’t have enough to move beyond.

Tonight I got to the bottom of why lack blocks my dreams coming true.  Earlier in the evening Carlo and I decided to pull some tarot to help us to understand our feelings better about moving.  My first card was Guilt.  It took a while to understand it but finally after some prompting from Carlo I understood why I manifest lack rather than abundance.

Because I have always felt guilty about the huge divisions of wealth between people.  In short I feel guilty to live in opulence when there are people all over the world living in extreme poverty.  I have always had a deep connection with the planet and others.  By the time I was nine I was raising money to help the feminine in Africa. I was born with it and hate to see the abuse and power we with money wield  over others who do not have it. However, by the time I was fourteen I had lost hope that this world was going to change and that is one of the reasons why I tried to commit suicide when I was fourteen (for more information about this experience go to www.rebekahshaman.com/my book.

But now this guilt is no longer serving me because I can’t help without money so I have reached a divine paradox.  I need the very thing that I detest so that I can help the people who don’t have it to get it.

So in order to fulfil my intentions and dreams I have to let go of one of my deepest core beliefs that money is the root of all evil.  It is time to allow the abundance to flow in my life first to enable it to flow to others.

Oh wow!! It’s time to have some fun…..

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Tonight is the first night of Chanukah – the Festival of Lights.  At dusk every night for eight nights one more candle is lit and by the eighth night the menorah is alight with candles with an extra one the Shamash – the guardian candle raised above the rest.  The family gathers around the lighted menorah and sings Maoz Tzur which praises God for his salvation and remembers the times of persecution in Jewish History.

It is traditional to eat fried foods especially donuts throughout this festival, chocolate money is given to the children and a game is played with the Dreidal or Sevivon – this is a four sided spinning top with letters on each side that spell out Nesh Gadol Haya Shem – ‘A Great Miracle Happened There’ to remember the miracle of the oil.

In the Jewish religion this festival is all about miracles.  Chanukah tells the story of when the second Temple was destroyed by the Greeks and there was only enough olive oil to light the eternal flame for one night, but the Rabbis prayed for a miracle and the olive oil lasted eight days (enough time for more oil to be pressed and prepared).  Every year Jews all over the world light candles for eight days to remember the miraculous event.  By following this ritual we are reminded that miracles are happening at every moment. It also represents the miracles that help us through our trials and tribulations and give us hope for the future.

A lot of the time we are too attached to experiencing miracles that have huge impacts on our lives. This month become aware of the miracles that are happening in your life, however big or small.  So often we take things for granted and do not see the wonders that are all around us; a breathtaking sunset, dinner with friends, laughter and sharing, good food, a hug from a loved one.  These small miracles are what make the world magical. They enrich our lives and remind us of how good it is to be alive.

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Hands up who said something in the last few days to someone that really hurt them…. I sheepishly put my hand up!!

I said something to someone close that really hurt them. More than hurt, they were deeply affected by my words, which created a huge storm in our relationship. Strangely enough the same person I had hurt had upset another close friend the night before and this had deeply affected them in turn.

What the three of us have learned from this experience is that when we speak our truth judgmentally we create disturbances in ourselves and others. When we speak words with compassion, the love is obvious and instead of hurting others we help them on their path.

This waning moon in Gemini is bringing all this stuff out into the open. We need to speak our truth but the way we deliver it is imperative during this moon. Feelings are running high and, as Christmas fever hits, it is important now more than ever to become aware of our actions and reactions.

Very often our minds play tricks on us and we start feeling anger and frustration towards those who are close to us or who we work with. Instead of reacting to them, which can create huge painful outbursts, we need to step back from the feelings and see why we they have arisen. When we become aware that everyone is reflecting and manifesting our greatest dreams and worst fears simultaneously we stop the blame game and start realising that its time to change ourselves.

Whatever disturbance is going on in your life now start seeing it as an opportunity to make changes in your own life. You have the power to change everything in your life. Walk away from that relationship that you feel is not honouring you, or hand in your notice at work if you are not feeling fulfilled. Trust that when you follow your heart and walk into the unknown without fear or regret magic happens.

We are not victims of circumstance, of life, or other people. We have brought every experience into our lives to show us how we think and feel. Once you change what is happening inside you, the external world will change accordingly.

Love and blessings and Happy December

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Phewwee… what a journey this last couple of weeks has been. I feel as if I have been dancing in the chaos. All around me friends and family have been faced with dramas and confusion, as plans and dreams have been shattered and yet, new doors are opening all the time. We have had to face some of our deepest fears and really acknowledge that going with the flow is the only way to find peace.

Fortunately, the full moon in Gemini is more of a light, airy moon that will clear away some of the storm clouds that the Scorpio moon has bought up. We are all still in process which means that we still have to face our fears, but things will become easier and more manageable.

As we head into the festive season Gemini moon reminds us that we must take personal responsibility for our attitudes and behaviours. During this month be careful not to get too hung up on what others believe and say. Remain in your truth, without having to prove others wrong. There is enough room for everyone to have an opinion. This is a good time to show the humanitarian side of yourself. Act on the feeling if you feel drawn to help others less fortunate than yourself.

We have now gone through the chaos of the Scorpio new moon and time to celebrate the completion of the moon’s journey to fullness. Things are starting to come together and even though we are still in process there is more joy, laughter and peace. This is the time to really get out and share your joy and love with others. Surround yourself with those that see and know you on a deeper level than what is seen by the eye. Share a meal, stories and friendship and acknowledge the people around you, work colleagues, team mates and family.

It is a wonderful gift that this full moon lands on thanksgiving weekend. The American ritual of thanksgiving is all about giving thanks for the end of the harvest and the abundance that we have in our lives. The sociable and friendly Gemini moon brings an opportunity to share and celebrate with others everything good that is in our lives. Rather than being caught up in the fear and dramas, it is time to recognise the sun shining on us and enjoy the magic and wonder of life.

The key word this month is ‘Receptivity’. Be receptive to everyone who is in your life, whether they have a negative or positive influence on you, as this moon is all about taking personal responsibility for what is happening to us. Find loving compassion for those who have angered or upset you. In their own world they have a right to feel how they feel, just as you have.

Be careful of mindless gossip and of what you say. Become more intimate, open and honest about who you are and what you are feeling. The key to connecting this moth is to listen and share. Be open to the subtle signs that are showing you the way, and your inner voice that you have been cultivating throughout the year. Things can only get better so settle down this month and enjoy this festive season.

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

What an intense week it has been.  It seems that this new moon in Scorpio is providing us with the opportunity to really learn how to surf the wave of Synchronistic Chaos.  All around me and in my life too, friends and family are facing their darkest fears and greatest hopes at the same time.  I am finding that by not being attached to what is happening, I am able to see the magic moment to moment.

Everything is speeding up, including our awakening.  We can no longer pretend that the challenges we are facing in our lives are just going to go away.  This new moon in Scorpio puts us in a position where we have to face our fear – whether it’s manifested by other people who are causing chaos in our lives, or situations beyond our control.  It is showing us that we must take personal responsibility for everything that is happening in our lives because we are creating it.

Albert Einstein said you cannot change a situation at the same level it’s been created. It is the time to start seeing our lives from a different perspective.  I call it the fourth dimension or the quantum dimension. We have to accept that darkness and light co-exist simultaneously in our lives.  The sun is always shining when you see beyond the clouds

At the beginning of my spiritual search I believed that the state of enlightenment was all about reaching a place where there were no more challenges and problems and I could live a life of bliss.  Now I know that the state of ‘enlightenment’ is the pure acceptance of both the dark and light that is manifesting all the time, just like the waves crashing onto the shore.  As one wave disappears, another takes its place in a constant flow.  Life is like this.  As one dream dies another is realised.  The challenge comes when we try to hold on to the dream that is dying and do not focus on the new one that is being created.

Nowadays t is easier to see the flow, instant karma, as things are changing at every moment in rapid succession.  So during this period don’t get too attached to the dramas that are going on around you and live life from the eagle’s perspective.  That way it is easier to see all the possibilities that are available to you.

The more we accept we are creating our own realities the easier it becomes to make choices that honour our true nature and bring empowerment.  The more we listen too and act on our inner voices, our inner guru that is guiding us on our paths through life, the more we can fulfil our dreams and goals.  Life becomes much more fluid and more in tune with the natural flow of life.  We can start seeing the magic and the wonder in every experience, whether we judge it as good or bad, and let go of our need to control the outcome.  Then, instead of being battered, thrown around and smashed by it, we are really surfing the Synchronistic Wave and trusting that everything is happening perfectly.

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxxxxx

Hi y’all. Well, I have been gone for a little bit. After the last couple of blogs that I wrote on that “feeling of nothing” and time to make a change, well…. yeah, we did.

The day I wrote my last blog, my fiance’ (oh yeah, he asked!!! I said yes!!!) and I had a very emotional discussion on what was going on with our finances. Though we both took FULL responsibility for all the “potential problems” we came up with some great solutions. (Writing this now, it is nice to see that we are looking forward at potential problems and not at them as they blowup around us). So we opted to move out of his house, back to mine and make some other financial decisions (oh… and get engaged).

So we moved, repaired and got the house on the market in under two weeks, had it in contract in two days of being listed, participated in 2 Halloween parties, did trick-or-treating, took family pictures and started the process of unpacking a house that was now filled with 3 adults, a teen, three pre-schoolers, a new baby, two dogs and a puppy. Hee Hee…. at least life is all around, all the time.

So, I am now back at the home that I (looking back again) really took a break from while I figured out some other aspects about my life. I had “changed the sheets”, and it is now time to come back and repair, change and take back the aspects of my life that were good and needed attention.

Small…. Though I do value down time, time to watch a movie with the family and to watch a sunset, life around me, as stated by my fiance’, is never boring. And as one of my best friends mentioned, “You never do anything small.”

A special thank you to Michael for all the times you have been there to bounce my thoughts and “create”. Thank you to Rob for seeing the beauty of a life through all the chaos. And to Rebekah for the advice on “changing my sheets” and great advice that I couldn’t hear internally at the time!

Have a blessed day all!

Kim

The Scorpio new moon is all about self-mastery and is considered by some to be the most mysterious and miraculous moon of the year.  It opens up the door to hidden patterns and conditioning that subtly control our actions and choices. It can also be one of the most challenging and emotional painful moons yet at the same time can be ecstatically transformational.

The full moon in Taurus may illuminate some of your fears concerning what you don’t have.  The new moon can now show you WHY you don’t have what you desire or intentionalise.  Scorpio energy probes deep, deep into our depths and will tend to bring to the surface the darkness that we sometimes find hard to accept within ourselves. 

This gives us a deeper understanding of ourselves so we can find the causes of our problems and begin to genuinely heal the fractured parts of ourselves.  This is no easy task and sometimes pride and ego can stop us from really accepting all that we are.  It takes courage and an inner strength to commit to making ingrained behavioural changes. 

This moon is one of healing and transformation, so take the opportunity to make changes in your life – become more empowered in all ways.  Plant seeds for change with positive thoughts and attitudes and let go of that baggage that is slowing you down! Surrender to the changes that happen, whether you want it or feel ready for it or not. 

Be careful not to fall into the victimisation and suffering that Scorpio can represent.  Keep following your intuition, that little whisper inside that is constantly prompting us to take action.  It is guiding us towards the right type of creative inspiration, friendship or business decision that will help us fulfil our dreams.

RITUAL FOR THE NEW MOON

This ritual is all about becoming more empowered and strengthening your inner being.  Committing to change will help you to fulfill your goals and dreams more efficiently and effortlessly. 

Sit in a quiet room – be patient and wait until you have completed all your tasks for the day and you are ready to give the time to yourself.  Light some candles and burn incense to create an ambient space. Sit in a comfortable position with your back straight.  Close your eyes and become aware of your body. Connect deeply and slowly with your toes, legs, thighs, torso, arms, neck, face and then crown.  Exhale all your stresses and release all your frustrations, just breathe them right out of your body. Repeat this process three times.  Make sure you are feeling relaxed and stress free.

Refresh your memory of the answers to the questions you asked yourself at the last new moon.  Are you where you want to be?

Look at where your life is now and ask your self what you need to do to change certain aspects of it.

Write down any negative behaviour that is holding you back from achieving it.  This can be very liberating if you are brave enough to be honest and vulnerable.  Go into the dream time and ask your wise woman what you can do to let go of a negative pattern or conditioning so that you can grow and become more empowered.

Focus on one particular relationship or project and make a firm decision to change something in a positive direction, be it in your relationship with your partner, a child, business partner, work environment, parent or sibling.  Feed it positive energy, thoughts and intentions, however difficult this may seem at this moment.  See yourself in a positive situation with them and feel and believe it. Allow the relationship to develop, nurture and mature.  Find the inner tolerance, intimacy and forgiveness that will help you heal the wounds and challenges.  Even when the going gets tough keep on keeping on with the positive thoughts, overcoming any inner resistance, and by the next new moon you will find yourself in a new place…

 Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxxx