Nat

In a blog post on being sick in London, Michael wrote about the difficulty of settling down to relax and rest when there are other things to do. The challenge is that there are always great things to do.

Today I’ve felt tired and run down all day, but I got myself up and through the work day, drove home on crowded, snowy roads, and am waiting for it to be late enough to sleep the rest of the night.

It is a relief, sometimes, to be out of thoughts. I like to meditate when I am this tired. The mind lets itself go blank with such ease. It’s enough to make me think I can just wait it out, the drive to make an impact, the wish to make things better, the need to achieve something and be able to talk about it, or not.

Just to sit or lie and wait for the thinking to stop. I’m glad that I rarely remember my dreams. I usually have to get this tired or desperate in some way to pray.